I think I broke my butt. Yesterday we rented bikes; today we can’t stop limping. The adventure was worth it though. It usually is.
We only have a few days left here in Nicaragua – we’re spending them on the Isle of Ometepe for our final debrief. As we biked around the island yesterday I felt so alive, so myself. It was a difficult ride – sweat and sunscreen melted off our bodies. I could feel my face burning red. And like I said, that bike seat violated me something fierce. I hope I’m still able to give birth.
We stopped to eat by the lake and drink smoothies under a hut. We dipped our feet in the water and lay out in our sports bras. We ventured through the woods to find a lagoon. We marveled at the big, beautiful volcano in front of us. We took pictures, spelling out l-o-v-e with our bodies.
Today we went to a natural spring. It was so fresh and cool – exactly what we needed after our hot and tiring expedition yesterday. I lay in a hammock and swung off a rope into the water and placed an order for tacos as I floated.
My life is a bit surreal right now.
On Sunday we said goodbye to our Nicaraguan friends and families – I didn’t cry. Everyone else cried. Why didn’t I cry? Honestly, I think I was a bit shocked. So much was happening around me and so many tears were being shed and I just stood there, hugging people and feeling slightly numb. I’m sure it will hit me later and I’ll experience that familiar ache in my stomach – the one I get when I truly, deeply miss someone/the way things used to be. I hate that ache. But I also love it, because it acknowledges that I’ve been blessed with meaningful seasons and relationships.
My girls and I talk about going home, about the end of all this and the beginning of our new lives…but we usually feel like we’re talking about a movie or somebody else’s life. It just doesn’t feel real.
The future, this summer, is full of promise – road trips, weddings, moving to Georgia, developing relationships, embarking on a new chapter of life.
As this journey ends, another one sets off.
And so the cycle continues.