jesus loves me this i know (…but seriously.)

I’ve heard it said that when a woman is loved by a man she has a certain glow about her. Last year that idea kind of annoyed me. What about all the women who aren’t loved by men? You know…like nuns, single female missionaries, and anyone else who is currently without the adoration of a man. CAN’T WE GLOW TOO!?

I think I’m discovering that yes, yes we can.

I went to Italy to fall in love with God; instead his love fell on me. And this love has followed me back to Ohio and now down to Georgia.

I know my last post was all YAY I’M BACK IN GEORGIA SURPRISE PARTY WOHOO! But, at the same time, coming back to a place that has transitioned and moved on without me has been hard. “I want to fit neatly back in – this isn’t exactly happening,” I wrote in my diary the other night.

It’s been easy and hard. The thing about Gainesville is so many people come and go – sometimes it’s hard to maintain deep relationships. Last night in particular I was feeling lonely. My roommates were gone and I didn’t know who to call. I said to God, “Can you have someone text me and invite me to hang out? PLEASE?” and seriously, seconds later, someone texted me and invited me over (my response: “OKAY YAY!!”)

I have non Christian friends who call that a coincidence. My heart knows that it is not.

After receiving that text, I thought about how God could’ve kept me all to himself that Saturday night to teach me a lesson or strengthen my character or something like that. You know, to prove that I don’t need to be desperate for people, only him. But his undeserved love was so much more profound.

These days with God I feel like the only girl in the room. When I fall asleep at night I feel so close to him, like he’s right there with me (it gets a little crowded with my sister sharing the bed too.)

Even though things aren’t always easy, I know he’s not out to make them hard. When I was in Italy I wrote, “My mindset is gradually changing – I’m believing once again that God is not only for me, he’s FOR me. No, not once again – even more so. Hence why I’m being forever changed. He’s my protector and I’m actually getting to experience that because I’m in situations that make me cry ‘help me, help me, help me. You have to come through.’ And of course, he always does.”

This week I’ve had moments of panic and moments of loneliness. And yet I find myself spoiled with a tender love that wipes away all my tears – sometimes before they even fall.

I can’t help but glow.

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About Hope Naomi

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3 Responses to jesus loves me this i know (…but seriously.)

  1. chelseakim says:

    I needed to hear this today. God is for us always always. love you so.

  2. brandy says:

    love this – resonates with a similar journey the Lord has taken me recently. In high school when I had a crush on a boy, my friends would say that I’d have “The Smile”…you know, the one which lights up your whole face and you just can’t stop smiling. Yeah…well I had The Smile the other day simply thinking about God and His Great Love. Yay Hope…glow on! 🙂

  3. Suzy Hachey says:

    who the heck are you. you glow more than so many women i know, and it HAS to be Him. obviously…it’s Him. thank you for bearing this part of your heart, and the way you’re becoming more intimate with Him as the days go by. I think that’s been happening for a while, maybe unbeknownst to you, and Italy was just a catalyst for it. either way, you’re glowing, and it’s contagious, and i want it. Georgia will start to sink in and click again soon; until then, be patient with yourself and others, and know there is something tender and precious about a quiet spirit, a meek spirit that maybe doesn’t have company all the time. lonely, sure, but you’re thought of OFTEN by me and so many of us. and just so you know…this week Jesus and I are gonna snuggle. OVER-TIME.

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